Shocked?

I always did want to make a website of my own, something not tethered to carrd or strawpage But by now you must be asking "why the hell are you doing all this for one blog?!?"

Because this is what i would like the site to look like but.. i dont know. It feels too pretentious? that makes no sense. but its what i feel! And i made this through a html template, i want my real website to feel more personal..

SO WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO?

• Moving states
• Being more friendly
• Deadlock
• Trying to live with DID, Yikes!

Despite how i usually portray myself i think of myself as a very evil person inside (i think i have morality problems) But thats not really my only problem.

I DONT WANNA WORK SERVICE INDUSTRY MY WHOLE LIFE

AKA

oh god. I think i need to go back to college.

But heres the problem with that, i love writing, but me? getting an arts degree? in this economy?

are you nuts?

So here i am, looking for another way to spend the rest of my life in a capitalist wasteland. But im not particularly.. good at anything else. And i know im not the first to experience these feelings, but that doesnt make me the knowing knower.

Thank you for reading note05 of the Midnight beach project, and let me know what you thought!